The confession below is about sincerity and integrity. I share it here because I feel exactly the same way. For a ‘social animal’ like me, loosing friends is never easy. Yet, I am not ready to sacrifice my conscience even in order to keep a friendship. I may be wrong on what I believe – I have been proven wrong before. š¦ That is why, some day I am going to write something titled ‘How I Changed My Mind’).
Yet, until I have enough evidence to change my mind, I have to be true to what I believe. And, of course, I will express those convictions in imperfect ways, in line with my temperament, my level of (im)maturity and my ethnic makeup. I hope my friends can live with that. But if they cannot, I can’t do anything about it.
As Scripture says, let us walk together in the things we think alike, and may the Holy Spirit enlighten us in the rest. I can live with that. Can you?
And now, here is what Pete Enns has to say about it.
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OK, this is going to be a little personal, but you donāt have to read it.
In case you havenāt noticed, I write about the Bible and Christian faith now and then. And if you’ve noticed that, you’ve probably also noticed that some of what I write about could be considered a bit edgyāfor some, at least.
And thatās OK. When you write about God, Jesus, and the Bible, youāre going to be controversial for somebody. And, if several thousand years of recorded history are any indication, some people are probably going to be very, very, very angry with you for uttering thoughts about ultimate reality that they donāt like. They might even hate you (in Jesusā name and for the glory of God).
But that doesn’t bother me terribly. Sure, I donāt love it, but itās part of the job. Plus, my keyboard has delete button.
Over-the-top negativity isn’t the hard part. Whatās hard is losing friends, a community, a sense of belonging, a shared narrative.
Itās not so much about friends becoming enemies, but the more subtle disorientation of not really fitting anywhere.
The insider becomes the outsider. Nothing unravels a social fabric quicker. I get it. No one likes their social fabric unraveled. It keeps us warm and safe. No offense taken.
I keep writing because I believe in being true to myself, and genuine faith cannot exist for me if I hold back and refuse to ātake door number 3.ā Iām not particularly brave. I donāt wake up in the morning mustering courage so I can go into battle to slay dragons. I just donāt know what else to do with myself.
I donāt know how not to turn things around in my head and look for a different angle that produces some new insights, even if that means leaving behind familiar things. I just canāt imagine not trying to work all this outāfor my own benefit, and, if all goes well, for others, too.
Iām not whining. Iām not a martyr. It is what it is. Iām just saying the loss of community, of a shared narrative, is the hardest part for me. Not fitting. Not knowing where you fit, or if such a place even exists. And maybe this is how it will always be.
And I know a lot of others feel the same way.
(Source, HERE)